Well, Juan Carlos took off for Reno, NV this weekend to help a friend out and so I have some down time without him for the first time since we got married. I've had a lot on my mind lately and it feels like this little twist in plans is finally giving me a chance to slow down and reflect a bit. Because of our financial troubles, I've taken up a second job, teaching Tuesday and Thursday evenings in Lakewood to try to earn a little more income. But between wrapping up the semester at Saint Martin's, grading papers, planning classes for Pierce, and spending weekends with Juan Carlos going out, time has flown by and I have barely had a chance to relax and refocus my life.
As we look toward the future, we face a lot of unknowns, which is always the case to some extent I guess, but even moreso now. Going to Mexico the way we were hoping may not be a possibility anymore and even if it is, it may require a much bigger sacrifice than we had originally counted on. The plans we made for ourselves were again thrown up in the air, but strangely, I do have a sense of peace about all of this, because I know in the midst of uncertainty we're forced to focus our lives back on God and ask again, "What do you want of us, Lord?" We're vulnerable, dependent and uncertain, full of hope, full of dreams and without a clear direction- right where God wants us...
